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Name: Megan
Birthday: 7/9/1991
Gender: Female
Interests: interests? well, there's movies to watch, people to hang out with, beaches to be at, sports to see, volleyball to play, food to cook, cousins to learn from, and football to score touchdowns for...lol
Expertise: I can bake some mean Cookies, Brownies, and Muffins
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
4/12/2005
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| And I am trying desperately to catch up.... School started last week, but right now it's not too overwhelming. I don't feel like a senior though, it feels like we had a three week break or something, and then we come back as juniors again. I keep turning the corners and expect to see Lockhart or Westfall, and I say to myself, "where are the seniors? and Who the HECK are these PEOPLE I don't recognize!!!" It feels like I'm swimming in a sea of unfamiliar faces, it's odd... Either way, I guess I'm feelin pretty good about the year... Work's work, I like it, it's very fun at CEC, but my boss doesn't like me I don't think... I should probably go off and do something productive, but I'm really not in the mood, I kinda wanna write, but I don't know...we shall see... | | |
| I haven't been as true about updating a lot as I thought I would be, but life just seems to have kicked my, for lack of better term, ass... Life's not bad or anything, it's just decided to give me a hard time dealing with some stuff...like the fact that I'm a senior in high school, which terrifies me Yay for being done with Northwest and required learning, but I'm scared...I have gained so much through high school, like my best friends for example, and I don't know if I can handle losing them. Let's face it, the second I have that diploma, I'm outta here. There's a lot to stay for, but there's also a lot more pain and ghosts lingering here in this town. I feel like I owe it to myself to go away and start fresh, but I don't want to leave everyone behind. Also, in high school, I know what's going to happen and what to expect, once I'm done with high school, I lose that sense of "knowing" as I travel into the big bad scary future. I hate not knowing what's going to happen in my future, or if I'm making the right desicions now to make sure my life isn't a constant struggle to stay on top. That is one of my worst fears you know, that I'm going to screw up really bad and I won't be able to fix it...or just screwing up, I hate making mistakes and then letting people down. And starting tomorrrow, I have to be even more responsible than I have ever been in my entire life, as tomorrow is my first official day of work at Chuck E. Cheese...Boy, am I in over my head at that place...They have so many rules and they are so strict, and it's scary... I just want to sit here and bang my head against the wall, but lord above knows that won't stop tomorrow or the day after that from coming... And now my dad is riding my butt on college stuff...oh my gosh...He's freaking out cuz I'm looking at colleges that are between 20,000 and 30,000 a year, which he can't afford with the $20,000 CD he has in the bank set aside for me...I know what career I want, I know what colleges I want, but he wants something else for me...he keeps suggesting colleges to me that I just absolutely do not want to consider. for example, BGSU, which is a fine school, don't get me wrong, but I have a feeling I won't be challenged there. I don't want to go to a college that makes me feel like I'm in high school again. It's just not for me, but it's cheap, so my dad is pissed cuz I won't even consider it...He thinks I'm being snobbish because I refuse to go to colleges like Kent state, Akron U, BGSU, Ursuline, John Carroll, Notre Dame in Cleveland, and even Kent stark...those are fine colleges, really they are, but they just don't interest me. Wow, I've been searching for a good reason and that's as good as it gets I guess, they just don't pique my interest, not like Miami of Ohio, Ohio Northern, or Mount Union... However, my dad is freaking out thinking I'll graduate and not be able to find a job and be in debt up to my eyeballs...Personally, I think he's freaking out because his baby girl is graduating from high school next May Alright, I guess that's enough for now, I suppose I have to cook dinner for my dear old dad...Here's a specific shout out to Cork and the Sci-Fi Club, have fun tonight with your tournament you losers!!!!! | | |
| Well, today was an okay day...School was good, we killed the first 40 minutes because Mr. Harbour wasn't in the mood for teaching, then I came home and did my usual routine of lunch and Las Vegas, after that I watched Beauty and the Beast, and I surprised myself when I started to well up with tears at the end, when the beast is dead and belle is crying, and yeah...it was slightly emotional....Then I went over to my mom's, hoping to play the piano, but of course, Jay was home, and he hates the sound of the instrument, so I could not play again today...dangit....Came back home, took a short nap, went grocery shopping with my dad, and now here I am, waiting for Chris to call me back, sitting at home all alone....boy that sounds depressing... The plan was that we (Chris and I and some of his friends) were going to go to IHOP, and then I called and asked Chris what time he wanted to go, he said a little later, like around 10:00, which isn't good for me, because, well, my dad has some very strict cerfew rules, especially after I've accidentally broken a few of them already...My dad says that if I do go out tonight, I must be home by 11:30...so I don't know if I should go or not...oh well...I'll make that decision when it comes to that.... | | |
| and no, I don't think the old man is snoring, since you know, it's almost 5:00 in the evening. Well, today has been....the same as every other day, except it feels like friday to me...darn it. I woke up at 6:15, but was too tired to get out of bed and take a shower, so I went back to sleep. School wasn't terrible today, the first two hours were rough, but the last two were a piece of cake. (boy does that sound yummy) I found out that in my class of 12 kids, 2 are getting A's, one of those is mine thank you, 5 are getting C's, and 5 are failing miserably. Mr. Harbour wasn't too happy about that, he's mad that he makes his class extremely easy to pass, and people are still failing. Oh well, I have my A, so I'm not too concerned. I came home and like usual watched Las Vegas, then watched Hercules because I'm still on my Disney kick. I decided to curl my hair in a ponytail to practice for tomorrow night, when Chris and I and hopefully some friends go to IHOP. Then, once again, I slept for 2 hours, and I'm still really tired. But here I sit, home alone typing away. I called my dad and asked him what he wanted me to make him for dinner, and he told me that my brother is taking him out. So now I have to figure out what I'm going to do with myself. I'm feeling the literary creative juices flowing, but my one project isn't doing so hot, and my other baby is lost on a memory stick that my brother won't let me have. Poo  Becca's party was last night, but nothing exciting happened, and there were some girls there that I kinda don't like, but that's only because they don't like me...I drove Chris and Jarzi home and had a loving chat and I came in a went to sleep.... Well, I have 114 e-mails that I should probably go through and delete and such, soo....hopefully tonight won't be a bore.... | | |
| And I don't necessarily think that's a bad thing :) I never really realized how much I missed updating my xanga... Anywho, Chris took me out for ice cream yesterday, so that made me feel loads better  And I actually got to read a couple more chapters of Emma, so now I only have about 200 pages left, yeah, that's gonna take me a while, oh well...it's a good book Today was just your ordinary day again...I had to really fight the urge to fall asleep in Government. I couldn't really help it...I would catch myself nodding off, then jerk my head right back up. It's just really hard to stay awake while he's lecturing on and on and on, boy I'm nodding off just thinking about it. Then I came home and ate lunch while watching the show Las Vegas on TNT, which my brother got me addicted to, and after that, I watched Aladin, since I'm on a Disney movie kick at the moment. And after that, I slept for about 2 hours. I woke up and in attempt to stay awake I called Chris to see how his training went today. (He got a job with Lockhart and Mark and I guess Westfall selling knives for Cutco) And now I have some time to kill before I go pick Chris up and go to Becca's birthday party. I have to shower first though, there was a spider on the ceiling of the shower this morning, erego, I stay far far far away. Lord I hate spiders... Anywho, I'll leave this one a short one today, since nothing major happened.... | | |
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